Personality Disorders Included
Résumé time, my favorite. I'm an empath, a loner, a clown, and a spend much of my time in existential crisis. Between working, parenting two kids (of whom I am lucky enough to have half-time custody), playing music, cooking, tinkering, reading, and home projects, finding time to do much else (including recording) is difficult. I've got enough goals at this halfway point in my life that I could quite literally live for hundreds of years and never run out of things to do. While I sometimes get tired, I am never bored.
I am a zealous believer in personal capability and agency; a collector of pragmatic skills, tools, and information; a pursuer of objective, Aristotelian truth; an individualist; a defender of inherent individual rights and freedoms; and a fervent supporter of the cultural Libertarian movement. In short, I love people who pursue their own passions and self-determined destinies, and I have zero time for anyone who participates in or promotes victimhood narratives of any variety.
When asked, I describe myself as an atheist, but this is really a time-saving shortcut, an end-run around people who might think that the word 'agnostic' means that they could potentially proselytize me to one creed or another. A better descriptor for me is "fundamentalist agnostic" - I don't know, I know that I don't know, and I know that you don't know either. The frequency with which I, and everyone I know, resort to over-simplifying labels makes me sad, but time must be saved, things to do, so many things to do.
So, how does a person with this evidence-driven philosophy, who takes such a dim view of "feelings" end up writing such sappy, emotional songs? Well... it's because I'm really emotional... duh. I can't ever know how other people feel things, so I don't know how my own experience compares, but it seems to me like I feel everything somewhere between two and ten times as intensely as everyone else I know. I'm massively easy to annoy, sadden, bring to laughter, or spin into despair. I have also fallen hopelessly in love several different times, sometimes with wonderful women, like ES, JDB, or VDP, and sometimes not.
I spent several of my adolescent years living on the street, and have been places and done things that I should not have survived. I experimented recklessly with my own brain and body, and sometimes feel like the hero whose superpower comes from a piece of alien matter lodged in his brain that is slowly overtaking his person, and who will eventually succumb to its consumption - right on the edge of the existential abyss. Still, it's good to be me.
My interests include, but are definitely not limited to:
- Economics (Austrian and Chicago School, predominantly)
- Stained Glass
- Ham Radio
- Primitive Skills
- Hunting (purely academically, at this moment)
- The Culture War
- Music (mine and others)
One day I hope to get out of this god-forsaken cityscape and get a place with a goodly number of arable acres, a nice, deep well, and a barn-sized shop with enough room for all of my avocational pursuits and unfinished projects. For now, though, I'm just putting one foot in front of the other, doing my best to find time for everything while not being a terrible father, a terrible employee, or a terrible human being - well, this section is called wishes... so...
Also, if you are someone whom I have wronged, and you certainly could be, please accept my sincere apology for whatever wrong I've done you. And please reach out if you'd rather have that in person.